Rainbow afer the rain

I am happy now…
Started the day with a request for more sleep
Prayed very well
Talked to Him
Requested for guidance, knowledge and wisdom
Prayed for the person who hurt me to be blessed
Had a good brunch…
Heard of both not so good and good news
Went to the mall to buy some fruit and bread
Saw my ex
Went to the office
And realized that there’s this happiness in me…
God is really always there
Ready to pull you up even if you haven’t asked yet
Thank you
There’s always a rainbow after the rain

Lord I am scared, really scared.. Not for myself but for the people that I love. You know why, please give me the wisdom and the knowledge on things I can do so that I will not feel this way. I am afraid that the mistakes he/she did in the past will now need to be paid. Please guide them, lead them. Please use this situation so that they will go back and long for you. Make everyone loving them prepared of the situation that might come. And if decision needs to be made, guide us. Lord give me peace of mind, most of all give them the realization of your love for them. Make them realize that you’ve been longing for them to come back to you. Please guide us… Let us feel the joy of our salvation. I love you.

Do I have the right?

Do I really have the right to get angry, frustrated and disappointed??? It just so painful that there are people whom you have trusted so much and thought will be there turn out to be non-existence during the time you needed them most.. Real friends are not just needed during happy times.. but most of all they should and will be there in times of pain.. so where are they??? Ano ba naman ung magtext? Mangamusta? Mag-condole? I've realized, mas masakit palang tanggapin na wala mga taong ineexpect mo, or even just to show concern during a funeral kesa sa hindi sila makarating sa sarili mong wedding.. Buti na lang I have my God.. who through thick or through thin will always be there for me.. Thank you God.. Please take away this bitterness I am feeling right now. I love you God.

Ouch

Bakit may mga tao na nagddwel on their feelings of being hurt.. Pero sila sa sarili nila nde nila alam sobra silang nakakasakit?

Complacency

Another close relative of ours died and it was so sudden. We were in Laguna to celebrate my Tita Rosie’s birthday, who just passed away, when we receive a call. My Tsong Peping just died. He is not sick or anything that’s why hearing that news really shocked us. What strike me most was that I didn’t use every opportunity I had to share God’s words to him. I was so complacent. I know I had every chances God can give. Tsong Peping usually goes to our house to fix some things (he’s our local version of McGyver), or just visiting us. With his knowledge and skills in driving and mechanics we would usually go out of town with him. When we needed him we just usually text or call him and he will be there right away. But then, given those situations, there were no words came out from me to tell him how God loves him. This already happened to me, when my father’s brother, tito ver died. My greatest regret then was that I didn’t even share any God’s words to him. I’ve realized that I could have spent some time reading the bible to him. But I was so busy then.. So busy doing nothing, spending time with my so–called friends. I’m so busy thinking how to enjoy my life. How to make memories, which I thought would make my life happy in the future reminiscing it. Now, with Tsong Peping, I really never thought he will die this soon. I’ve been so relaxed believing that I will still have a lot of time. There are a lot of things he did that I don’t like, but wouldn’t that alone be a reason for me to share? I feel so selfish. I am so satisfied with my own salvation that I always neglected my greatest commission. So here I am again having the same old regret. I know I will have all the reasons not to share, or even make up one, but would those reasons be enough for me to withstand their salvation being in vain? I know I don’t have the power to save them, but God gave me the responsibility to share and making them believe is not up to me but up to the Holy Spirit. All I have to do is to talk, share. I’ve been so confident talking and discussing to our youth, who’s mostly Christians after all, why can’t I do this with my loved ones??? May the good Lord teach me and mold me to be His fishers of men. May He not allow me to lose another life without me doing what I am supposed to be doing.