Den, Lan, Don

Kulit... I miss yah donie.. my ever critic best friend..

Seriousness ito..

B e s t D o n i e . . . f u n n y f a c e s ! ! !

Two of the most important boyz in my life...

Best Donie..

I love you from the bottom of my heart..

No matter who you are or what you are...

I will stay as long as God allows me to..

No funny stories will ever turn me off on you...

No mistakes will ever make me give up on you...

Thanks for being there... as always..

Stay strong.. Do good and do right...

Rightful things aren't the easiest thing to do

But it's surely the best thing... with best result..

mwuah...

05/30/2007

Kung pagibig ay makamtan
Wag’ kalimutan pinanggalingan
Wag kang umasang d masasaktan
Pagkat buhay ay hindi ganyan

Tumayo ka lang at lumaban
Kung pagmmahala’y walang kinahantungan
Ang importante ika’y may natutunan
At magmahal muli kung kailangan

tRiViA

... Dennis and I don't know each other not until we met at our NJO. He's previous work was with Bayantel and mine was Mapua... so how did our relationship started??? See below some truths and trivia regarding it.. Coincidence??? Nah.. I don't think so.. It's how love moves... hehehehe

1. Hired Date. October 10, 2005 is what our supposed starting date here at Accenture, it's actually written on my contract already. But separately we both decided to have our starting date moved into October 24, 2005. Nice start huh...

2. NJO. We're about more than 50 starters who attended it.. On the second day we were grouped into 5 teams which corresponds to the Accenture Core Values. Well... guess what?? dennis and I were in the same group. The core value assigned to us was Best People.. And what was so funny was our role play.. Ang role namin??? mag bf... hehehehe... the last scene was that I called him on the phone, and when he answered the phone he called me Honey ( endearment namin ng ex ko... hehehe ).. then nung baba na namin yung phone he said I love you.. hala.. nakakainis kaya yun.. hiyawan tuloy yung buong class.. kainis!!!
Meron pa pala... nung first day yung human bingo.. ang kulit ko.. gusto kong manalo so papirma ko ng papirma sa kung kanikanino.. without me really memorizing their names.. Tapos 2nd ako sa natapos nung tinawag na ko, iniisa isa ko yung mga names.. tapos meron dun "Someone Who Smokes" tapos dko naintindihan yung name kasi signature lang.. ang naintindihan ko lang Roy!!! So akala namin yung isang Roy sa class.. e yung Roy na yun twice na pumirma..kaya yun disqualified ako.. Then nung kami na tska ko narealize si Den pala yun.. Dennis ROY..

3. Bench. Not so unusual.. pero magkasama kami sa bench.. Netcentric.. Dun kami nag-start magpapansin sa isa't isa.. pag may juice na ang gagawin nya kukuha nya ko unang una ng juice.. para d ako makahalata ( akala nya ) ikukuha nya ng juice yung buong batch namin.. tsk..tsk..tsk... too good to be true.... hehehe...

4. Java Training. Sobrang naging close kami. We texted each other. But still we're on the stage of really not expecting na maging kami. And I'm sure we're both praying for God's will. Then first day ng Java training namin sa GT, as usual late ako. While on my way to the floor iniisip ko kung magkatabi kami. Well I am praying. Then pag dating ko naka save na upuan ko sa tabi nya. I was supposed to sit beside sa isa naming ka batch, siempre pa cute pa ko. Tapos tinawag nya ko, sabi nya tabi daw kami,,,uy! sweety sweety... Then nung nagstart na sabi nung prof namin igrougroup daw nya kami into 4.. Kainis!! Pero lam nyo ba... magka group pa rin kami... Galing no! And that's how and when we started to really get close.. Daming nangyaring puro painful and masasaya at the same time. Imagine one month na lagi kaming magkatabi.. and that would be 8 hours a day... Masaya kasi yun yung umpisa namin.. Pero painful kasi while we're getting closer dumadami ng dumadami ang nasasaktan naming tao.. Which we will never be proud of....

5. Bench after JDS. Because of so many things, like people na nasasaktan SOBRANG hirap!! Mahirap maging happy pag alam mong may masasaktan. Everything was so uncertain.. Kelan magiging kami... kelan talagang matatapos ang lahat...Kelan nila matatanggap??? Daming pagkakataon na naggoodbye ako sa kanya.. pero nde sya pumayag.. he FOUGHT for me.. for us.. one thing that I really love about him. Then as usual, I prayed to God silently na kung talagang magiging kami iaalow ni God na magkasama kami sa isang project. Then there was this instance wherein pumayag siyang maglet go. Pagkasend nya sakin nung email nya na nagleletgo na siya, bigla na lang may dumating na email. Galing sa manager namin sa bench.. Ang nakalagay, ipapadala kami for a one month training for Ariba. Siempre ang ginawa ko hinanap ko agad name nya... and it was there!!! Galing!!! Sobra!!!

6. Ariba Training. Magulo pa rin... mahirap... waaahhh.. yoko ng balikan kasi ayoko na ulit maramdaman lahat ng naramdaman ko nun.. Everything are turning out differently from what we planned it would be.. Akala ko magiging maayos buhay dito sa Accenture... nde pala... Very Very Very complicated!!

7. Bench after Ariba Training. Sad ang story.. kasi we ended up on different projects. Siempre medyo gumulo kasi magkaiba kami ng project.. Na parang oops.. teka lang we were in the same training but not the same project..

8. Rolled-in. After ko ma roll in sa project.. hehe.. magulo pa rin.. dami pa ring mga bagay bagay na sobrang nagtest sa amin and sa akin... After being rolled in madami kong na experience na never ko naimagine na mangyayari sa kin.. and it's WORST! But then, one of the best thing happened.. I was on leave and then nagtext sakin si Monay sabi nya magexpand yung project namin and they will be getting people from other project.. Then....... nalipat si Dennis dito sa project namin!!!! Ang saya... Galing ni God...

... So there, if this is not God's will then dko na alam kung ano to'.. Our story is not the usual thing... But I know that those things are God's will... To whatever purporse it may bring.. I will thank God for He's my everything... Bahala si God.. Madami kaming nasaktan in the process,, and that's one thing we will never do again.. Madami kaming natutunan.. And one biggest lesson learned.. We could have waited for the right time.. We sort of rushed things before.. And we know kung nagantay lang kami ng tamang panahon we would still be together... We know that those 8 instances would still happen.. then tsaka namin marerealize na talagang meant to be kami.. Pero ganun talaga... and we intend to let other people learn from our mistake.. Life and love will be more beautiful if it's on the right time.. No rushing of things.. God's timing is always the perfect one...

5/25/2007

Here we go again, hurting each other for no reason
wondering why we keep committing the same mistakes.
Sometimes I'm feeling that it's more than just illusion
Tell me why we keep pretending
Are we so scared of give and take?

Why do we always hurt the ones we love?
Just when it seems we've finally made it through
Why can't we fly between the eagle and the dove?
Why do we always hurt the ones we love?

When you cry, the tears were falling like raindrops
From my eyes...why do we do hurt each other?
Tell me why we shouldn't try, are there some things we did'nt share?
Why do I see you walking out right w/ me,
I see you standing here?

...Tell me why do we hurt the ones we love?
(Why?) when we've finally made it through
why can't we fly between the eagle and the dove?
Why do we always hurt the ones we love

It's really nice to have a blog...

Posted May 24, 2007

At our wedding I'm planning to have everything unique.. I want to create our own marching song.. This one is a good start... I pray that God will give me more knowledge and creativeness on how I will be able to express what's inside our heart.. on what we will surely feel on that day... on how we fought for this relationship.. and how God helped us made it through the rain...

As you wait there in the altar
With me about to walk the aisle
I'm sure tears will not stop falling
For this once was just an unreachable dream

Going back to the places we've been
The almost never ending goodbyes
In Pains and hardships we gain strength
I know and see you from here
Your happiness and joy my heart can feel

Don't be so nervous your heartbeat I feel
Just smile ....

waaah.. malabo pa. wala pang patutunguhan.. pero I wanted every piece of this posted.. I want you to see how this will be finalized.. God bless me on this...

11/23/2004

This poem has nothing to do with how I feel at this very moment. But I admit this how I feel some time...

God I am so down
I've been rejected countless time
And it is so painful
For those times I still fought
Tried so hard to stand again
Telling myself that You know better
That better things will come my way

But God please show me Your will
Before pain starts to kill me
And self pity destroys me
I'm losing hope and confidence
And I don't wanna lose faith in You
Give me signs...I'm losing grip...
Help me understand and believe...

BUT I WILL STILL HOLD ON! IN YOU I LAY MY LIFE ... IN YOU I WILL SOAR MY WINGS LIKE EAGLES...

Me AnD My LuVs

BeNcH..aFtEr BoOtCaMp...

HoUsE PaRtY!

rOn & mArLyN's WeDdIng

rOn & mArLyN's WeDdIng

June 18, 2006...Veteran's Hospital.. First time that Den met my mom...

who'd have thought this is how the pieces fit,

you and i shoudn't even try making sense of it,

i forgot how we ever came this far,

i believe we have reasons but i dont know where they are,

so blame it on my heart... oohhh...

CHORUS:love moves in mysterious ways,

it's always so surprising how love appears over the horizon,

i love you, for the rest of may days

but still its a mystery of how you ever came to me,

which only proves,

love moves..... in mysterious ways....

heaven knows love is just a chance we take,

we make plans but then love demands a leap of faith,

so hold me close never ever let me go,

coz' eventhough we think we know, which way the river flows,

that's not the way love goes. ohhhhh....

France and Joseph's Wedding

Girls in action...





Me, Mona and Cloudy... the beautiful girls of Helpdesk.. la si mama France...















The bride and the gurls...








Si France lang nakatingin sa camera... Parang princess..










Oizt.. laro lang yan.. wlang personalan.. Si cloudy susuntukin na si Monay... bwahahaha... all for the sake of winning....

Wondering...thinking...praying...hoping...

I don't know if this will already post the correct time. It's 6:34 AM, Monday, May 14, 2007. It's a holiday today (election day), but of course no holidays for us for we're supporting the US working days.. I'm wondering if this one is going to be a double pay already. I just remember our holy week, which of course is not a holiday for us. It was promised that it's gonna be a double pay.. But as usual, until now we're still waiting and dreaming of having what we're supporsed to be enjoying now..Sometimes you feel so betrayed when it seems that you're begging for something that is rightfully yours. When will this ever change?

Why am I up so early?? I woke up at past 5 AM today, got my cellphone and hoping that Dennis sent me some sweet message.. And yes! he did.. He told me that he misses me so much that he wanna embrace me.. Me too!!! Why? Becuase he's here yesterday. Me and my family and him and Ate Arlene were trained by my papa about Insurance. Of course, we're not allowed to be sweety sweety...not even to just hug and say I love you... haay... And we're not used to that.. We are just used to be together alone..But of course we're so happy and blessed that despite the fact that we need to be somehow strangers, at least he's with us (with the whole family!)..For those who already knew our story can understand what I'm trying to say...So let's go back to what happened when I woke up. I went down to pee.. Got back in bed.. and then remember what Dennis has just texted me.. I texted him back and told him how much I misses him.. and how much I'm praying that God will allow us to get married. Yes! I wanted to marry him.. I wanted to have a family with him.. In my entire life I was never this so sure about marrying somebody...And how I pray that Dennis is the one God had prepared for me.. I love him so much.. I love everything about him... What funny is, I love the things I hate about him. Why? because that what makes him him...So what's stopping us? Personally? I want him to have a better relationship with my family first... I want my family to see and realize how blessed I am to have him... Then, wla pa kaming pera!! WAAAAAA!!! Because of that my imagination played again.. I remember that we wanted to have our own business.. And I'm thinking of a business now, but not so sure if we will be able to have it in reality... Unang una.. wala kaming enough money for that.. Naubos pera namin nung na operahan ako...and sad to say wala kaming na reimbursement sa Maxicare!!So going back ayun.. Kakatakot din at the same time kasi baka naman yung konting naipon namin e mawala pa since d pa ko sanay magbusiness.. So as usual, I prayed to God, I know if it's for us bibigay na lang Nya yun without us realizing we already have it.. So after magisip, magpray, magwish, I've decided to just open my friendster and my blog.. Sa friendster, I've sent my cousin Arcie a message. He sent me one and I just decided to reply. So anong meron dun? Preaching ko sa kanya...hahahaha... Well I missed that boy so much... and of course I miss his kuya as well.. Ang bilis ng panahon dati yung kuya nun si Ching kasabay ko pumapasok. I was in 1st year and si ching nasa grade 1.. At ang baon ni Ching 5 pesos ata!!! Hahahaha... ang kuripot talaga ni mama.. But now, they're both grown up and need to face the reality of life.. And I know it will be harder for them because they're both in the States now... and parang alone kasi my cousin (Ate Juvy), we're they are currently living now is too busy with her work and family... But I believe that Arcie's knowledge, and experiencing living and having God in His life will bring him and Ching into a world full of joy and love in the Lord.. Which will bring them a better life.. To kuya Ching and Arcie...keep the faith!!!!Christ RULES!!!! And make him rule in your life.. Mwuah... Friendster time....

new poem

This just came to my mind... not done yet...

For whatever purpose this life may bring...
I will thank God for He's my everything...

5/15/2007 9:09 pm

The sun above may not keep on shining...
Or the rain will not find rest in pouring...
I will thank God for He's my everything...
For whatever purpose this life may bring...

Goodbye Kisses... Goodbye Hershey

Last May 3, 2007 my dog, Milky gave birth to two puppies.. I was so excited and named them Hershey and Kisses.. My uncle told me that there's a possiblity that they are premature... After a day or maybe two, Hershey died.. then just last night Kisses died too.. After so many attempts of saving Kisses, which includes feeding on a baby bottle, giving a good place to sleep.. well my pup didn't make it.. I'm sadden by the reality that there are things though' how much you wanted it will never be yours.. what important is that you know how to accept things.. this reminds me of my father's favorite quote.. which is something like this... "God gave me the serenity to change the things I can... To accept the things I can't change.. And the knowledge to know the difference.." it goes with accepting things that we really can't have.. and Hershey and Kisses will be something I just used to have..
I will always be happy that God blessed me to have this understanding to accept and lay down everything to Him.. I'm not the type of person who insist (which most of the time the cause of my argument with Dennis).. I always wanted to make it a point to let things happen.. But that doesn't mean that I won't do anything about it.. What I usually do is give my best shot and if in any case I won't still have it I won't have any regrets.. I will just let Him direct my path.. I know God opens the window when He closes the door...
Some good things never last cause it's always the best things that last...Only if you have faith in God...

Inspired...

Just read one of Bo Sanchez' book.. entitled You Have the Power to Create.. though' I haven't finished it yet.. well very very far from finishing it, I got inspired.. Where? With this quote he got there... You have the power to become happy or miserable.. You have the power to become success or failure.. you have the power to become a loving person or a selfish person.. The choice is in your hands.. and of course.. there was an instance wherein she met a very bored girl.. and she was bored because her cellphone battery already got discharged.. then he asked the girl to write up 100 things she wanted to achieve.. then I remember I used to have so many things in mind I wanted to do eversince I was a kid.. And now I wanted to share it.. Just hoping I would be able to finish this before 6 AM...

I wanted to...

1. get married with my Dennis... I wanted to have kids.
2. to write.. I loved writing.. I loved poems...I loved poetry.
3. go to Boracay.
4. have my own business.. I don't wanna be employed anymore...
5. have all our debts paid...
6. dance..
7. sing..
8. learn sky diving..
9. play badminton..
10. learn musical instruments..
11. act...
12. enroll to a music school..
13. enroll to dance school...
14. eat...eat...eat...
15. play...
16. enjoy life...
17. to learn bungee jumping...
18. learn how to drive using manual cars...
19. go abroad..
20. earn a lot...
21. help my family
22. help my church
23. to serve God with Dennis and my family...
24. be in good terms with my ex
25. Dennis to be in good terms with his ex...
26. have a very very nice, unique wedding...
27. have my own house..
28. learn scuba diving...
29. have mickey mouse items
30. have my own cabinet for my stuff toys
31. take care of kisses.. my puppy... she's premature.. and i wanted her to live...
32. go back to my ministry..
33. serve God..
34. serve God..
35. serve God...
36. play table tennis...
37. learn more how to swim...
38. learn karate...
39. have our Church Christmas party on an orphanage..

....... i think i will need to continue this coz I wanted to share some pix...

First time..

The title do really sounds funny.. well.. obviously this will be my very first blog. Tried it before but really got tired of doing or updating it.. But now, after viewing an officemates' blog (Ryan's) I told myself that I wanted to also have one.. Why? simply because I miss writing.. I miss doing poems.. essays.. and I believe no one really knows it except for those who are very close to me.. And also Ryan inspires me a lot ( without him knowing it ).. We have something in common.. and that will be our ministry in God.. Oh for how long have I've been missin' those things.. and how long should I keep on missing it??? If only I could make things easier now.. If there would be one thing I would like to do now.. that would be serving God with Dennis and my family... Going out with our Youth.. playing games... having fun.. sharing stories..sharing difficulties.. I miss the days wherein I can speak boldy to them.. I miss the days wherein they will call me "Ate Lan,,, may problem ako.." Right now all I can hear is them asking "Ate Lan may time ka?".. Or"Ate lan.. san si kuya...?" I miss dancing.. I really do miss it a lot... So much.. that it breaks my heart remembering those "Apo Diyos" days.. those "Sa Yahweh.."... I miss the youth so much... I miss my mommy... how I pray that God will settle everything between us.. I just pray as well that God will make way for me to love her with dennis... How hard is it to love someone and break someone's heart... I know someday God will answer everything.. all the uncertainties that I have now...
By the way what pushed me now to do this.. it's my ever pogi brother in law..Kuya B... I was very inspired when I saw his blog.. http://bbroda.blogspot.com... ang cucute ng pamangkins ko..and of course my ever pretty-sharon look a-like sistah.. who's ever kind and loving.. I now found a place where in I can tell what I feel.. what's inside me...For it's very seldom for me to share it...
Today's francia's wedding.. Walang tulugan!!!! Oks lang I'm so excited for her.. I know she's been waiting for this for quite a long time now.. i'm so happy attending her wedding even if means not being able to attend the Ariba Summer outing...See you guys..