Complacency

Another close relative of ours died and it was so sudden. We were in Laguna to celebrate my Tita Rosie’s birthday, who just passed away, when we receive a call. My Tsong Peping just died. He is not sick or anything that’s why hearing that news really shocked us. What strike me most was that I didn’t use every opportunity I had to share God’s words to him. I was so complacent. I know I had every chances God can give. Tsong Peping usually goes to our house to fix some things (he’s our local version of McGyver), or just visiting us. With his knowledge and skills in driving and mechanics we would usually go out of town with him. When we needed him we just usually text or call him and he will be there right away. But then, given those situations, there were no words came out from me to tell him how God loves him. This already happened to me, when my father’s brother, tito ver died. My greatest regret then was that I didn’t even share any God’s words to him. I’ve realized that I could have spent some time reading the bible to him. But I was so busy then.. So busy doing nothing, spending time with my so–called friends. I’m so busy thinking how to enjoy my life. How to make memories, which I thought would make my life happy in the future reminiscing it. Now, with Tsong Peping, I really never thought he will die this soon. I’ve been so relaxed believing that I will still have a lot of time. There are a lot of things he did that I don’t like, but wouldn’t that alone be a reason for me to share? I feel so selfish. I am so satisfied with my own salvation that I always neglected my greatest commission. So here I am again having the same old regret. I know I will have all the reasons not to share, or even make up one, but would those reasons be enough for me to withstand their salvation being in vain? I know I don’t have the power to save them, but God gave me the responsibility to share and making them believe is not up to me but up to the Holy Spirit. All I have to do is to talk, share. I’ve been so confident talking and discussing to our youth, who’s mostly Christians after all, why can’t I do this with my loved ones??? May the good Lord teach me and mold me to be His fishers of men. May He not allow me to lose another life without me doing what I am supposed to be doing.